The Summer of My Satisfaction

Summer and I go very well together.I'm lazy and she goes out of her way to make life even more lazier for me.When I'm all strung out and exhausted by the demanding situations in my life,summer comes through like sunshine in a dark stormy night.Over the years whenever i had a terrible time coping up life,summer came up as solace.

Summer always gives me the time and space i need to do my own thing,even if my own thing doesn't amount to much. Last year before coming to the states, i had lots of time in my hand,and in the hindsight it was all for the better.I got to relax and others got to read some more depressing/angry/mindless posts.Hah.

Summer and I had a wonderful time this year.A rather better part of summer was spent at CJ's house along with ze mark.The kinda jokes that were cracked in that house,the kinda talks that were shared in that house,are beyond the boundaries of a sane mind.Endless hours were spent talking about everything and anything under the sun.From talking about the times we had in the past one year,to talking about the lack of any direction,and by talking i mean cursing. 

I still remember the day when we bought CJs gigantic television.The U-hauling and the over pricing.Hah it was fun.This was just the beginning that ended with our addiction with ze xbox.Modern Warfare 2 was the lone savior of our lives,along with a cameo by Trials HD.We spent weekends at a stretch completing the game.(Yes Jaggu, i said it the game) know it's just a video game but the kind of exhilaration we had,the kind of abuses that were spewed every other mind,while completing those missions is/are priceless.

Now its time to bid summer farewell.Even though my room mate tries his best to paint a pessimistic/truthful picture ,I see a cheerful and a optimistic Fall,and by Fall i mean the season.This time off has really prepped me up for another semester.I have lots of things in mind that i want to accomplish and i firmly believe that I'll get by..with a little help from my friends. 

There is always a point,i might fail to see the point in the present,but without a fail,every time,i have realized it in the hindsight.No Regret,No Remorse.Moving on.

The Summer of My Discontent

Summer and I don't go very well together.She,for reasons unknown, has always been very harsh on me.The past three months have had a striking resemblance to last year.Last year,I thought this is as bad as it can get,but as always fate was determined to prove me wrong.And wrong i was.Last year i was bored out of my freaking mind being alone at home while there others who were bored out of their own freaking mind by being alone at home and we used to communicate through the holy medium of internet.But this year we have joined forces.

Summer usually applies this Modus Operandi:At first when she's yet to come,she entices me with the grand hope of accomplishment,fulfillment and all things inspirational.Then as she comes closer and when I'm not paying attention she covertly changes her plans(Yes,she's convoluted).As i wait in vain,Summer then arrives and all that is left is a vaguer hope of getting through it with minimum damage.

Summer alone is not responsible for this.For this? For this? For what? Boredom? Discontent?  Restlessness? Habit? The answer is never clear,the lines are always blurred.

I have now started to accept that discontent will always be a part of me.It's in my by design.How much ever i try to deny that,or to fight that it doesn't seem to go away.It fades away for a while only to come back stronger that ever before.On the other hand this feeling of discontentment is the one responsible for all the good things in my life.Bitch.

I'm never discontent in the true sense of the word,i always accept what i get with arms wide open because it's always for the better but at the same time a part of me resents it.A part of me knows that i can do much better,but the other part says "maaf hai".I don't know if that's funny or scary.I remember saying to certain someone yesterday that "i can give best piece of advice to anyone and i can cheer up people during troubled times,wish i could do it myself as well".Or at least someone else would.

Okay,so my perspective has shifted a bit during the course of writing this post.Now as a result of a conversation i am wondering "Really,am i too harsh on myself?". Do i like this feeling of judging myself on my own terms and then wallowing in that feeling of discontentment? Sometimes i do feel that my mind goes overboard with all the thoughts.The imploding voice inside my head really fucks me up.On the outside i can work,watch a movie,share a joke,crack a bad joke(i mean a really really really bad joke) but on the inside my thoughts keep tearing me apart.

I guess there's no point.The specifics hardly matter.Kalti.

A Perfect Circle

Okay,so where do i begin?
It's hard to believe that my last blog post is dated July 23,2009(not taking into consideration my previous post).It was exactly a day before i was to leave for Amrika.I still remember that strange feeling within.All those nights,when i used to sit back in my balcony in Udayagiri staring at those planes flying across the sky,wondering where i am headed.Contemplating what is that i am supposed to do after i finish my engineering.I remember it was sometime in T.E when everyone was giving their GRE,while me and pable discussed our future.Those random/philosophical/lengthy yahoo chats with Manas about weighing the pros/cons of coming to US,masters,MBA and everything in between.Those confused thoughts going through my mind all through those years.Going forward with these thoughts work started and still my mind wasn't fully occupied,somewhere deep inside something didn't feel right.So then as the cliche goes, universe conspired to get things in motion and after that night i was also going to walk on through to the other side.

As far as life over here goes,it's been a pretty exciting.Most of the things over here were,just the way i though they would be.EXCESS - that is the only word to describe Amrika.I'll save my thoughts on Amrika for some other post.Everyone gets by over here,with a bit of faith.If you lose optimism over here,you lose everything.There were times when the words didn't seem optimistic but inside my heart everything did feel right.It wasn't like those previous years.There were testing times,i(along with others) worked till wee hours in the morning,learnt to make some fat-ass burritos,got to know several dozen types of meats and cheese,stocked all varieties of chocolates,gums, but it was all worth it.I still remember the conversations nair and I used to have in highland, somewhat similar to ones described earlier in the posts.I would not change a single thing.As time passed by I got everything i deserved and more. Just a little bit of faith is required.

Largely due the close proximity of my destined university ,I also got to cross some places off my to-visit list which i had made during engineering days.Previous winter i got to see vegas, which was fun.Those blinding lights,the fountains of bellagio,the grandness of MGM grand,quite awesome.And even more importantly i traveled to the city(technically,a state) of my dreams(as cheesy as it may sound but that's the truth,i was/am obsessed with it,balme that on the internet/hollywood) :California.Pable and his co-op was the perfect excuse to go to San Diego.I really had an amazing time traveling to there alone and even more so traveling with "them" within SD and LA.The ocean is really breathtaking ,reminiscent of Mumbai.

With the blink of an eye,I am more than half way though this course.Most of the things Jisha mentioned in an comment on one of my last posts turned out to be true.Things changed and for better or worse, I changed.

And so with this post i am trying to reach a perfect circle and start posting more often on my blog.It feels good to be back again.Cheers!

Adieu

I had always thought of posting one blog entry the day before I leave.So here I am doing the same,amidst the chaos of work that is still pending.

That weird feeling has started to sunk in just a wee bit now.I'm feeling somewhat uneasy,mostly because of my procrastination.It was a good day,met all of my ex-office buddies in the afternoon,caught up with a good friend of mine after a long time in the evening.On the other hand,could quite catch up with couple of friends and I'm feeling really bad about that.

So that's that.

Miss you all ,and see you on the Other Side.

In July

Last couple of weeks were pretty much a blur for me.

Drive,Shop,Sleep.Meet relatives,leave relatives.Meet friends,leave friends.Drive,Shop,Sleep.Lunch here,dinner there.Windows crash,Tweet Tweet.Drive,Shop,Sleep.

And the shopping didn't actually end,I guess mads was right in claiming that it won't ever end.

All in all,it was exactly the kinda experience i was looking forward to.I'm still not sure how to describe the entire experience of past month.It sure has been a emotional roller-coaster(pardon the cliche or you may not).There has been an unexpected detour,some apprehensions and a lot of talking to self.

I vividly remember this time of the month,last year.Watching friends leave and wondering what'll be happening to me during the course of a year.I found out the answer to that question.

Pissenstance©

Definition :The mohsintionary describes it as the collusion of a multitude of pissing events happening in succession or close proximity to each other and furthering the destructive (pissing) effect than could have been caused by each such event in individuality.


For far too long,I have been judged and derided. For far too long.

For far too long, I have kept quiet,nodded,even smiled while listening to each one of YOU.Day in and day out someone or the other has kept on prodding me with his/her witty one-liners,although,I'm not saying that any of it was ill-intended but when the levee breaks,the flood's going to flow.

For far too long ,I have heard, from the 'Holier Than Thou' kind,about how I have been wasting my time,about how I am online all the time,about how I have nothing else to do,about facebooking,about orkuting,about gtalking,about virtually anything at all I have been doing(or rather the lack of it),about how sitting idle is apparently some kind of Blasphemy,about how I should find something "useful" to do,about "updating" too many times a day.

So at this point in time,I am all out of patience and ignorance.I am feeling a strange mixture of anger and motivation.Tide doesn't take much time to turn,God willing,it will turn.But for now I'm sitting in my room.

And waiting.

And wishing.

If only,self-righteous people had mirrors in their houses.


Pissenstance,Copyright © held by Wendol.

GOD hates NIKE......

.......or at least he/she doesn't like me wearing one of those.

3-4 Years Earlier,
Few days had passed since i had bought my brand new Nike shoes,I am the kinda person who doesn't buy shoes easily,by easily i mean that i browse through at least five to ten different brands in various malls and factory outlets before i finally choose THE pair.One important fact you should know is about the strange rule in my college library:One has to remove his shoes outside before he enters the "Air-conditioned" library" and this is BY ORDER.

Well so obviously i couldn't argue with "BY ORDER" ,so I removed my shoes outside the library and went inside.I still can't think of a good reason why i would have gone inside the library except maybe to get some assignments.Anyhoo the day was about to get over and I came back outside to head back home,so I start looking for my shoes,i repeat brand new shoes,and funny as it may seem,there sure as hell weren't there ! The moment it stuck me I thought of shouting "Chor Chor" but then thought otherwise.Everyone left and the only pair of shoe remaining was the one which my new friend had decided to leave for me,his own worn out shoes,while he walked away in my nike.

April 2009:
After all those years now I have bought another pair of Nike,which passed all the aforementioned mandatory browsing through stores located in Kharghar,Seawoods,Vashi and all the way to Bandra,Chembur.So I am happy again that i have got another Nike and now i wear that to my gym and other purposes,I'm loving this shoe,but as always,where there is too much love there is fate.

The important fact which you should know about present day is that in our home we have shoe rack outside which has a key and lock.

So,few days back mom and I saw a stray pair of Reebok lying right next to my shoe rack,we both didn't pay much attention to it,maybe someone has come in neighbours house and left it there.
And also around that time,mom took out the key from the shoe rack which dad had forgotten to keep inside while going out.So we lock the shoe rack and come back in.Dad comes back home,and inquires about the stray Reebok,i still couldn't care less.And so that day passes.

Next morning,while I am still in bed mom comes in room with that same stray Reebok and asks me whether this is my shoe.Half asleep I look at it and say "How can that be my shoe?NO,it's not MY shoe,why are you holding this shoe in my room in the first place?"As i answered this question i had already almost realized what had hap pend yesterday.So just to confirm it mom goes out and opens the shoe rack,and funny as it may seem,there sure as hell wasn't any Nike shoe lying around there.Mom confirms the same to me and I lay motionless in bed,smiling at the god above.Once again the memories of that fateful day in college sweep through my mind.

And hence the moral of the story lies in the title.

Epilogue:
I thought of buying a new pair as i needed one to wear in gym,so i set out again to browse through the stores,but as i reached Vashi,even the thought of again going to through the pain of trying out various shoes troubled my lazy mind.I knew what had to be done.I went back home empty-handed.Later in the evening i wore those same stray Reebok to gym.

No Computers,नो इंग्लिश

Last week Samajwadi Party(SP) had come out with their manifesto for Election '09,in which they had stated that if SP came into power then they would reduce the usage of Computers at workplace and curb the compulsory usage of इंग्लिश language in administration,judicial places and in schools and would rather promote national and regional languages.

My first reaction,just like any of you,when i heard this news was a mixture of WTF with a wide grin on my face.I thought,here we go back to 1960's,how can these people even think of such a thing in today's time and age? How can anyone come out with such regressive plans for people of India?With passing of time,English media bombarded questions on them asking about the same,me and most of my friends too thought they had gone crazy coming out with such an idea.And now a week later sitting in my bed,suddenly a thought stuck me.

So let me present another side of this story which i think none of us ever care to think of.I'm not defending anybody over here,but just merely trying to bring in a different perspective.

First of all let's get one thing figured out that SP is a regional party contesting elections in UP and maybe some states around UP.Now do we really think that there is a wide-spread usage of computers in villages of UP or for that matter in UP itself? Do the people over there converse in English? Does anyone even know how to read and write English?Sometime i have found myself and even some of my friends saying "Look at France,Germany,Japan,China they haven't given up on their national language,they force others to speak in their own native language and NOT in English" , BUT when it comes to our own country,we totally detest the idea of anyone speaking in Hindi or any regional language(Alright,i may not be in favor of totally regionalizing languages but Hindi will do) .

From what i gather there is widespread poverty and unemployment in UP, so does a state like that really need computerization? Yes, computers can do the work of several individuals but why would anyone in his right mind favor that in villages or small towns?Heck, Who would want to reduce the number of jobs? Why would any political party promote that?Why do we think that getting proper English education will be to utmost importance to the dalits of UP?

I would not be saying the same things if these were opinions or manifesto of a national party.But in this case I think WE,the metropolitan population,the bloggers,the Facebook/Orkut users,should really stop believing the that we make up the whole of India,when in reality ,we are not even 5% of the whole population of India.In fact we all are so disconnected from the rest of India,that not even in our dreams we can realize the state of affairs in rest of the India and especially the rural states unless we go and visit them ourselves.

Well,in the end,I guess all I want is for people to start viewing things such as these with a different perspective and not just confine the whole of India within our own small realm of Internet.

HowTo:Kill Time

Have trouble understanding Class XII integration?Dropped from college? Have no job? Are you the Project Leader of a team? The company which(after numerous unsuccessful aptitude tests and "HR" interviews) finally decided to hire you, gave you a joining date of 2019? Looks like it's time for you to kill time.

In this brief yet complete guide you'll get to know how to go about performing this seemingly simple yet intricate act of killing time.In 4 easy steps you can complete this complex act.

Step One - Get Rid of Anything Remotely Useful in your Life

If fate hasn't done this bit for you already,then the onus is upon you to take the first step.If you have a job that sucks(or otherwise)? Quit it. If you have exams coming up in 1 weeks time? Stop studying.If you have a project deadline in couple of days time? Pretend to have a migraine. and put all the burden of work on your "teammates".

So the trick is stop doing anything useful in your life,anything that can actually amount to something meaningful.This is very important step if you want to kill time,otherwise it doesn't make much sense to kill time,just for the sake of it.You should be rendered truly idle in order to proceed to Step Two.

Step Two - Kill all urges

Yes,now that you have finished Step One,there would many temptations for you to go back to your life the way it was before you took the first step,but you should first kill all such urges before you go ahead and kill time.One has to be strong and willing in order to stop such kinds of temptations to "utilize" time.

(Meaningful)Life,as you know it,is over for now.However hard it may seem,you cannot go back to your earlier life where you didn't feel any urge to kill time.One should remain oblivious to any kinds of suggestion from anyone which offer you any kind of advice or tips to do otherwise.

Step Three - Killing Time

Time,as we all know,is very precious.Nevertheless we must kill it.

This is the hardest step.After you have made yourself able , you now literally have to kill time.This would require your complete attention towards nothingness.Your complete focus should be on nothing at all.There are many ways to brutally kill time,here are few for your consideration :

• Do Nothing - One has to remain in a dormant state on his bed,starting at the wall.You can't do anything else when you have decided to kill time this way.The only thing you can do,is think.Yes,think about your dreams and your aspirations.And how they have all reduced to dust.Think, about all you ever wanted in life and instead you are staring at a freaking wall.UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES , this thinking should lead you to spoil all the work you have done in Step Two.You just have to think,and not actually do something about your life.
• Become an Orkut Stalker - Anyone can use Orkut but c'mon you are not anyone.
  In order to get more out of this social networking site,one has to find some friends ,who are very "busy" in life and don't have the time(yes,the same time which you seem have to a lot in both hands).Now since you have zeroed in on your target,visit the scarp book of this unassuming friend of yours and post something completely random and irrelevant such as copy-pasting a below scrap or just typing "+1" in his/her scrapbook.
  
  This method of killing time has two fold benefit - First,obviously it does kill time(which is your intention) and Second,it forces the other friend to reply back spewing curses in your scrapbook and thus keeping his/her account active ,saving them from facing de-activation due to inactivity.
• Start Information Overload on Facebook -Share any small piece of news you have found on the internet with other people.A Dog gave birth to a rat? Share the link.Baby Panda sneezing?Share the video.
  Another,similar yet powerful way to kill time is to keep on updating your status every 30 minutes or so.These seemingly simple acts of sharing informasion,has profound effect on the minds of others who unlike you don't have time in their hands,and so it results in some not-so-kind comments,which in turn is a boon for you since it gives you ample time to respond to those comments and anger those very people even more.
• Chat with other species of your kind - There are some legendary chats which can occur between two suspects who are charged with the murder of time.
  
  Example 1 :
  
  
  1:47 AM Suspect A: not sleeping dude ?
  1:48 AM Suspect B: ekdum phresh feel ho raha hai abhi :D
  Suspect A: awesome
  Suspect B: eheh
  1:49 AM tu kya kar raha hai?
  Suspect A: eheheh phresh ho raha hoon re
  eheh not able to sleep man
  Suspect B: haha wohi toh...u sleep in afternoon too like me?
  Suspect A: eheheh yeah
  lol
  1:50 AM Suspect B: toh ghanta neend aayegi 2 baje :D
  Suspect A: true
  aur bol kya chalu hai life mein
  1:51 AM Suspect B: bass yaar..kya chalega...wohi baithe rehte hain net pe
  log pareshan ho jate hain hum se
  Suspect A: haha
  1:52 AM awesome atleast some good from this wretched thing
  Suspect B: aur nahi toh kya....everyone is liye stop wasting time on facebook
  aree toh kya karon
  Suspect A: ehehe man
  i am so bored with everything fuck i cant tell u man
  there are no words left in me
  1:53 AM Suspect B: hahahah
  Suspect A: its liek typing on chats and mails has drained my memory
  Suspect B: i can understand man....still life

• Start Blogging - Write a post such as this.
  

Step Four - Don't Stop

Come what(ever) may,you must continue to kill time over a considerable period of time,preferably somwhere around 3-4 months before you can safely think that you have killed so much time that you wish you hadn't.But don't let the regret get to you,if it does that you are guilty as charged,otherwise you are just another person livin' it through."Enjoying" each day as it comes.


So don't get up off your seats and sit idle to kill time.


PS: " Judge not lest you be judged"

The 5 people you meet on earth

"When you die and go to heaven/hell ,and if you have made at least 5 good friends on earth then you have lived a good life"

The above quote or something on similar lines was the status message of a friend of mine.So this quote along with the subsequent conversation I had with her,somehow got stuck in my mind,and hence this post.

If you really come to think of it,friends are really the essence of this life we have.I won't go in the details of frandships and the importance of having some really good ones.So in what details i wanna go in to?? Hmmmmm,even i am not quite sure of it yet.

I'm really glad to have made some wonderful friends all through the different phases in my life.In my school/colony,the 12th std classes,RAIT,LAN/cZ,Mastek I was lucky enough to come across a wide spectrum of people,and of all those I am very certain that I have made if not many but at least quite a few good friends,i.e the sorts who would be applicable to the above quote.

As years pass,it becomes quite difficult to pinpoint the exact starting point of a good friendship or what actually makes one go along so well with a particular person.As they say, It's Written.

With some I share all of my secrets,with some I had had some really great phone calls at a time when mobile phones had not made way into all of our lives,with some I had many eventful walks at night while coming back from classes, some i have spent most of my time with in school & college,some share mutual interests and dislikes,some because of whom my scrap count is nearing 8k,with some i have eaten food at the best places all over mumbai and in few other parts of india,some who know me better than I do myself and still talk to me for who I am while expecting nothing in return and regardless of how many times i forgotten their B'days( :p ) and then those few who are lost somewhere in time.

So i guess, this a Thank-You post to all you,YOU know who you are.


PS:This post is specially dedicated to the two of you whom i forgot to add in the list :)

HowTo:Instructions and Guides on anything and everything

प्रत्याख्यान
(Disclaimer)

The below post is written in good humor and out of sheer boredom.Any resemblance to persons living or dead is purely intentional.For Complaints & Grievances kindly use the comments section which may or may not result in (if any) prompt action.Though no efforts whatsoever have been made to ensure the accuracy and authenticity the content on this Portal, the same should not be construed as a statement of law or used for any legal purposes. Author apologizes in advance for the complete stupidity and uselessness of this post.


This is going to be my take on 25 Random Thingy which is on Facebook,the only minor difference is that this one doesn't have 25 things and I decided to include some of my friends in this one as well.

Listed below are upcoming 'How To' Guides, which are going to hit the shelf of a bookstore near you very soon.

• HowTo: Ruin a good picture by CharudAtta.If you like this one,then do check out his earlier bestseller HowTo: "."
• HowTo:Reply to a scarp in 7 words or less by Manas.He is currently in the process of writing his new guide HowTo:Use Rebel XTi.
• HowTo:Buy Unnecessary awesome gadgets by Pratham.Author of earlier classics like,HowTo:Meddle with course of nature.
• HowTo:Sleep with eyes and mouth wide open by Viki.
• HowTo:Eat Chillies by Neel.
• HowTo:Get bitten by a chicken by Sabu.
• HowTo:Get Knifed in cZ by Maha.
• HowTo:Smile for Photographs by Amy.She had previously written a rather horrendous personal account in HowTo:Get Poked.
• HowTo:Laugh intermittently by Tanvi.She had earlier written lesser known cult classics such as HowTo:Walk Fast and HowTo:Recommend awesome restaurants.
  
• HowTo:Sing "Barbie-Girl" with Death Growls by Chakku.
• HowTo:Create new words by Mohsin.Author of previously unpublished smash hit HowTo:Do the Nagin Dance.
• HowTo:Take Care of your Hair by Harpreet.
• HowTo:Complete B.E by Ramteke Baba.His previous achievements include HowTo:Recommend Good Music.
  
• HowTo:Wear Braces by Afra.She had earlier almost completed HowTo:Increase your height.
  
• HowTo:Eat More & Stay Skinny by Shweta.
• HowTo:Be Slow by Condi.
• HowTo:Buy costly untangable crappy earphones by Jeet.
• HowTo:Laugh Hysterically by Jisha.She is currently writing HowTo:Dance.
  
• HowTo:Not drive a car by Akshay.Also check out the prequel, HowTo:Not ride a bike.A sequel with a surprising new twist is also in the making ,HowTo: Fly an Aeroplane.
• HowTo:Stand in Queue by Shadab.
• HowTo:Hump Mountains by Gaurang.
• HowTo:Party All Night by jO.
• HowTo:Screw Up by YOU.
  

And last but definitely not the least,here's a few guides by yours truly:

• HowTo:Waste Time.
  
• HowTo:Fail miserably in Aptitude Tests.
• HowTo:Fidget with your face and hair.
  

Things I Noticed : RAIT Alumni Meet '09

So as i visited my 2nd Alumni Meet yesterday,here's a list of few things that i felt would be worth remembering few years down the line :

• People still come few hrs later than IST.So that's good.
• As i walked in the gates on my college with Viki,it felt less of a reunion and more like every other weekend.
  
• Ramteke Baba looked rather hilarious in a shirt.Stick to your tees and cargos. :D
• Mohsin was found walking around the college arranging stuff for the event with his customary headphones.
  
• Viki knows far greater number of people that I do.It felt stupid to keep staring at the ground or at some random tree while he conversed with them.
• Tees available on sale looked a bit uninspired.So did the name of Alumni Magazine.
  
• I finally gave Baba a chance to profess his long overdue unrequited love :P
• Viki sorely missed the company of 2 of his groupies(The BIG A & A) :D
• After my 1st year in RAIT the in-house metal scene was pretty much on the decline and this time around it felt as if it was officially dead.R.I.P.
• Continuing our long-lasting tradition of humiliating the incoming bands in our college,no one gave even a rat's ass about the band.So much so that the lead singer was down in the ground,looking back and cheering rest of his "band".
  
• Mohsin was the sole representative from the entire college who undertook the task of standing in front of the stage and giving the band encouragement of sorts.
• There was a strong sense of solidarity amongst the classmates of A Div., Computers 2k7.
• Our class on the other hand did show a very strong sense of Americanization.O Bro's Where Art Thou??
  
• After 2 years it gets a little hard to remember all the names of your batch mates ,but we did found a very ingenious way to overcome that embarrassing situation.Whenever you come across some guy whom you know but STILL can't get yourself to remember his name,you just have to go like this " Abe BC, TUUUUUU ? Kaisa hai be ?? "
• Chicken and the food in general was superb as it was last year as well.Although Chick Lollypop was gravely missed.
• Backdoors of two cars looked like a kickass bar of any suburban pubs.
• Booze was,is, and will always be cheaper than soft-drinks.To be preciese it was 10 bucks cheaper.*
• I truly appreciate the efforts put in by everyone who was involved in organizing this event.
• For what it's worth,if given a chance,I would attend another Alumni meet.
• RAIT will always have a special place in all of our hearts,Period.

* Soft-Drinks were priced at Rs.10 a glass.

An Ode to Mumbai

And so it happened AGAIN.

It's a Wednesday.(Who knew that a movie title could well turn out to be cliche of sorts)You come home from office at night,have your dinner and watch India beat the shit outta England. Think of changing status on your facebook account, as you are about to get up from sofa,mom switches to news channel showing a news piece about certain firing in mumbai.
You think this must be some silly firing among some groups or police encounter at best.

You go in your room and log onto net.10 mins down the line,you hear mom shouting come out,there seem to be more to this firing.As you blink your eyes,the ticker on the television channel start reading out the names of places where the firing has supposedly happened.Leopold.Hmm maybe someone has got off the hook.But Leopold?

CST station,TAJ,Oberoi.You think surely this can't be happening,it can't be that serious.Ville-Parle,JJ,Colaba.Shock starts to sink in,coz this just might be happening after all.But u still wonder,is it really happening at 11 in the night and that too CST,TAJ.Cmon'.

Live pictures start to pour in:People crawling on the road outside CST station,police escorting some people towards the safe zone,gunshots,some police men firing at unseen targets.You see this gathering momentum every second.CAMA hospital,GT Hospital under siege.Thoughts starts bouncing off the walls of your skull , just exactly how many of 'em are roaming around in South Bombay,are they firing with friggin' AKs,Can someone actually just fire openly on the roads of mumbai?

More news starts to pour in.Hostage situation in TAJ,Oberoi.Oh this can't be happening,they have taken over the both of 'em?You feel sleepy,you think this might get over in sometime.

You Sleep.You Wake up.Mom says this one has gone outta control.mum on high alert.they are loaded and they are on a killing spree at TAJ,Oberoi,Nariman House.

And as you go ahead with rest of your day and come back home(yeah there is no respite in IT).You watch images of TAJ burning.The very hotel which has been associated with mumbai to the very core.You see smoke coming out of TAJ ,as if it is Kashmir or Baghdad burning.But hold on, this is mumbai.OUR mumbai.Anger starts to sink in,it's been so long,what is really happening in there,how many mofos are with AKs in there,how many innocent people are still trapped inside these buildings.

Another day passes ,and more images of grenade explosions,fire,gunshots,blood start to fill your head.You pray for the safety of those still inside and feel sad for those who lost their lives in this ordeal.Still there seems to be no respite,as you know these mofos won't give in. They just aren't built that way.They know that the this will only end after they die but before that they'll take everything down with 'em.And that is visible with even more grenade explosions in TAJ.

You wonder just how much ammo they have bought with 'em,But hold on they can't just have bought this much ammo in their hands or bags.Surely they must have kept the explosives and ammo inside the rooms before they came in.So this is indeed an intricate plan.Meticulous planning must have been involved in it,after all you can't just bring in shitload of ammo inside TAJ the grand entrance ! The questions don't seem to end.Emotionally drained and confused,you think that all we'll be back to normal in few days anyways.Just don't think about it much...well yeah...i.e until the next one.

Mumbai-a city that never sleeps. Well this just might be true in more that one way that we could ever had imagined.

And i Missed You Too

SO......It feels quite weird to type in my own blog after some 6 months i guess.I somehow just stopped posting over here ,somewhere around august and it was that period of time in my life when i was truly and completely free and had nothing but time with me.But some part of me didn't feel like posting my worthless daily routines over here and then i just completely lost track of posting in my precioussssshh(as goloum would say).

Anywhoo all that is long time ago , things have changed since then and HOW.Well obviously you'll don't know how but i simply love this rheotoric kinda lines :D But i am not in the mood to tell ya that actually(simply coz it's nothing special and just mundane stuff) , but just that i am trying very hard to bring back the optimist in myself.Since the past month i have become this dull and bored kinda individual who is just living it thru one day at a time.And it's not like i have anything bad goin on in my life but just that it doesn't feel the right thing , but i guess it's probably the only thing i'll have to do for sometime at least.

As you can see i have used a lot of BUT in this post(no pun intended) but i can't help it , coz that's how confused i am...AS EVER.I really pray that i get some sense and find the thing that i have always wanted in life....whatever that is...

PS:As i write this post i feel alive again :)

Smilin' Days

:-)

This is Unusual !

I just can't bulive that i'm writing a blog entry while there is sunlight.Today i woke up at 8 and that too in the morning mind you ! And i'm awake in the morning hours from 9-1. i have a very faint distant memory of this period of time when i am at home.

Have used up most of time since then to write the post below this , which i orginally posted at mouthshut dot com ( which btw is a very ironic name for a site where everyone just doesn't seem to keep their mouths shut) while listening to the debut album by Wolfmother ; Hell yeah old school heavy metal is back. Damn good album. Then as i waited for my friends to log onto orkut, i listened to some more music. And then the usual chitchat and scrapping on orkut started and as a proof of the kinda rubbish i usually chat with my "dear" friend dAtta here's few scraps for your viewing pleasure only :D ::

Neeraj^Zeitgeist: Word Of Advice : Cornflakes taste pathetic if u take them just after brushing your teeth.
Charudatta: arrey i knew that...so does tea in cornflakes...
once i had only enough milk to make tea...so made it, then got hungry aswell...so poured the tea in with the conrflakes...
Neeraj^Zeitgeist: THE born losers are HERE !!
Charudatta: yeassss! dude...pathetic would be an understatement for us

And now i'm posting this thing as i have nothing better to do. I guess i'll order some food in sometime and then catch with friends in the afternoon.

The Day After

Well i guess things sometimes figure out themselves, what seemed to be a big mistake yesterday is somewhat alright now , or at least i feel it's alright now.Whatever.

You live,You learn,You make the same mistake again,You learn,You keep on making the same mistakes over and over again,You are stupid,I'm stupid.

WHEN IT ISN'T LIKE IT SHOULD BE

"Katherine Anne Porter once said; 'There seems to be a kind of order in the universe…in the movement of the stars and the turning of the Earth and the changing of the seasons. But human life is almost pure chaos. Everyone takes his stance, asserts his own right and feelings, mistaking the motives of others, and his own.'"

Sometimes everything in your life seems to be going perfectly as you want it to be, but then suddenly out of nowhere you do something that changes it all and before you realize life is complicated again.You blink and then everything changes for better or worse.It's almost like there is some unknown force that makes you do those things even if you have never even thought about doing that.
You think and you think about how you would lead your life in the coming year,month or even day but then it doesn't always work like that.You decide that you won't think much about anything and just go ahead and do what you like but then be prepared to face the consequence if that thing doesn't work out.

"IDA Scott Taylor wrote: 'Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone, and do not be troubled about the future, for it has yet to come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.'"

But there are times when you live in the present and still mess up things so badly that it becomes a bleak future and past worth forgetting. Sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens. And we know that this instant is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever.

There are days when you even surprise yourself by doing something that changes the way you interact with someone and which decides how it's gonna be after that moment.

Today was one of those days for me.

Terminally Bored !

This has been my state for past 2 days now.Been at home for past two days, today i could have gone out to meet friends @c1 but woke at 1.30 in the afternoon and then felt lazy enough to stay at home and get bored instead.

Watching death note ( a Japanese anime series) these days along with some movies at random but haven't completed one.Saw Garden State on Star Movies today, AGAIN for Nth. no. of time now and still can't get enough of it.

Reading books at random mainly 1984 it's an amazing book.I think most of you might have heard and read this one, for those who haven't get your copy today of both book and the movie. Essential reading and viewing.

Listening to porcupine tree's "Fear of a blank planet " : The lyrics in this album are so superb, and applicable in today's age. IMHO,their music in this album is kinda mixutre of pink-flyod and tool.

Lately my mood has been kinda down , for some reason which is unknown to me.Sometimes i get in this shell of mine where i feel all alone, and i feel like staying that way in that period of time.I think i should spend more time reading books now, they occupy my mind and also provide good food for thought. Sometime when you sit hours at a time watching the scrap counter in orkut stuck at one place(not that it matters if it's moving) , you start feeling sick,you start feeling empty, if i was another person who was looking at me i would tell myself
" Go Get a Life "

The Recap

Back to bloggin once again , after a month and few days. I had thought of various posts to write during the last month but somehow didn't feel like typing. Everytime i thought of typing something i was like let it be , maaf. Thinking of writing a post bout exams getting over or colllege. lets see.bored for now.

Just writing this post so that i can break the "jinx".